I pray you can get it under control brother. I have never had problems with depression, however my mom has and she still struggles with it. She got really bad after my dad passed. I wish I had an answer to help you out with it brother. Get out and ride more :D
@sdm1 – thank you. I’ll turn 35 this year and have dealt with this since around 12 years old. Just the other day, I was thinking about one of my nephews. He’s ten and will turn 11 next year. It is hard for me to even fathom that almost at his age, I had these thoughts/feelings. Anyway… that is part of the reason why I haven’t sold either of my bikes; riding is my escape. Now just to find more time to ride after working. I work in the nice weather and am off during the crappy stuff.